[ When Sora lets go it's not too sudden but there's a sense of wrongness about it, like he's realized something belatedly and it's not entirely true because it's nothing he hasn't known for a while already. But it feels a little new, or new in the face of this maybe, letting both of his hands rest at his sides as he bows his head in a nod, emphatic, recognizing. ]
No, he shouldn't.
[ Should he apologize? Sora is not altogether sure, if that wouldn't just be out of place and in its own way more frustrating. The ones who maybe ought to say sorry aren't even here. His next breath is deep, the heavy sort that suggests a preamble for words that aren't going to be good enough but the ones that, also, people end up saying anyway - because in at least a few ways the saying is true: something is better than nothing. ]
I'm sorry he did. If I...I didn't understand what he was doing.
[ It's true and it's a weak response but he stares directly at Roxas. There's no lie he'd give because lying isn't what you should do, but also because it wouldn't help. Roxas probably knew Axel better than anyone, and Axel probably never told anyone what he told Sora, what Roxas knows now himself. Sora is glad Roxas knows, thinks it's different witnessing like this, but he also can recognize hurt. ]
I'm so sorry. [ He says again and means it as much as the first time. In a way he knows this is one of the things that had made him fear Roxas wouldn't want to know him after everything, wouldn't want to be known by him and if that had been his choice - or if it's his choice now, this reality made fresh, then Sora wouldn't blame him. It's Roxas' right as much as his friendship with Axel itself was, as much as his life, as much as his heart - everything the Organization told him he didn't have and everything that for too long Sora just went along believing. ]
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No, he shouldn't.
[ Should he apologize? Sora is not altogether sure, if that wouldn't just be out of place and in its own way more frustrating. The ones who maybe ought to say sorry aren't even here. His next breath is deep, the heavy sort that suggests a preamble for words that aren't going to be good enough but the ones that, also, people end up saying anyway - because in at least a few ways the saying is true: something is better than nothing. ]
I'm sorry he did. If I...I didn't understand what he was doing.
[ It's true and it's a weak response but he stares directly at Roxas. There's no lie he'd give because lying isn't what you should do, but also because it wouldn't help. Roxas probably knew Axel better than anyone, and Axel probably never told anyone what he told Sora, what Roxas knows now himself. Sora is glad Roxas knows, thinks it's different witnessing like this, but he also can recognize hurt. ]
I'm so sorry. [ He says again and means it as much as the first time. In a way he knows this is one of the things that had made him fear Roxas wouldn't want to know him after everything, wouldn't want to be known by him and if that had been his choice - or if it's his choice now, this reality made fresh, then Sora wouldn't blame him. It's Roxas' right as much as his friendship with Axel itself was, as much as his life, as much as his heart - everything the Organization told him he didn't have and everything that for too long Sora just went along believing. ]