♔ day 72 ♔

[binarysky]

[Roxas appears looking fairly apologetic]

I just want to apologize to anyone I talked to last weekend. I don't know what happened, but I wasn't...myself. It must have been a curse, but I'm not sure what kind. It was like...it was the first time I came here; I couldn't remember ever having been here before. But I didn't remember a lot more, it was like I was younger, too.

There's no way to say this without it sounding stupid, but when I 'arrived' this weekend, it was like it was back to when I was only seven days old.

Anyway. I was probably rude to people. I'm sorry. I didn't mean to be.

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[binarysky.livejournal.com]

[ Roxas is silent for a long moment before answering. He's aware that he actually knows very little about himself, others, and what his life's become, but there are a few things he does know:

Sora was good to him. Sora looked out for him when he was in no condition to look out for himself, and nothing bad happened. Sora didn't even try to stop him when he woke up uncursed, freaked out, and opened a portal out of there immediately.

But Sora fought the Organization. He wants to stop them from becoming whole. Sora hasn't denied any of that. ]

Give me a reason to trust you.

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[ Sora is not a thinker by nature, not by instinct, so every plan, every intention that requires more consideration has to have some deliberate quality to it. This is no exception and he makes some minor sound of 'okay' as he thinks it over.

What can he say that is still true but stands a chance of convincing him? ]

...

I want to understand more about you, and it's something I can't do unless...unless you let me...something I can't do without you.

I just want to understand.

[ he repeats, not quite desperate but searching, insistent ]

You...have no reason to trust me, and I guess...I guess what I think is that I can't give you one. You...have to have your own reason for trusting me or it's...not really you, right? It's just me, telling you what I think makes sense.

But if it helps, I do want to get to know you.

[ before we meet up again, before things end the way that they do -- where Roxas never really leaves but Sora never really knows him either except...through himself. ]

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[binarysky.livejournal.com]

I still don't understand why I matter to you.

[ But he clearly does, and he's not so sure anymore that it's because he's the newest, and (they think) the weakest. Why didn't they try something when he was truly weak?

If Sora can't give Roxas a reason to trust him...maybe he never will. It's not like there's anything in it for Roxas, is there? Why should he look for a reason? Why should he want to?

And there's that other issue. ]

You have a Keyblade, too.